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The Return... [Nov. 14th, 2006|02:36 am]
[Current Music |Cobra Starship: Snakes On A Plane (bring it)]

Wow, it's been a while since I posted in this journal, but I'm back and that's all that matters. Right?

Anyway, I think I've made the decision that I want to become completely submissive to JD, not only sexually, but in our daily lives. I think I want to live a completely D/s lifestyle. I've given it much thought over the last couple of weeks and I've decided that it is really what I want.

I haven't talked to him about it, but I'm pretty confident he's going to agree with me. I hope so anyway...

I really am a traditional kind of girl. I believe the man should control the money and be the final say on decisons (with her input taken into concideration). I believe a woman should have no qualms about "serving her man", in virtually every way.

I know I will have things I struggle with in this decision. I am, by nature, a bossy, independant, and stubborn person. I think that's partly why it will be good for me and for our relationship for me to become completely submissive. Anyway, I know I'll struggle with little things - like sometimes when he wants a backrub I really don't want to do it. Or just plain sometimes I will feel like, "who the hell is he asking me to do things?!"

It will be a journey and a real learning experience to submit myself to him wholly, but I believe I'm ready.

This journal will be my place to ponder and explore. I'll still post stories and fantasies here, but I'll also use it to examine feelings, events, and thoughts throughout this process.

A lot of people online who write about D/s relationships when blogging capitalize their master's names (for example, "My master's name is JD. I serve Him in every way, and He is my true love.") I choose not to do this in this journal. For one, I cannot stand it grammatically. It just plain annoys me. Secondly, I tend to think of he capitalized in that way in a religious way and that just doesn't work for me. Just letting you know now.

Anyway, I hope you guys enjoy reading this as much as I enjoy living it. ^_^
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Finally Another Story... [Sep. 25th, 2005|03:47 pm]
I'm sorry it's taken so long for me to post another story, but I don't think anyone actually reads this anyway...

Finally I've got a story and it's a long one. Today is my Master's birthday, so as a gift to him I wrote out the beginning of my most favorite fantasy. This is only the beginning, so expect for this to be continued and elaborated upon in future entries. Now, onto the story. Hope you enjoy it.

A Slave's Manifesto )

I love you JD.
Happy Birthday!
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No, BITCH! [Jul. 26th, 2005|03:38 am]
[Current Mood |horny]
[Current Music |Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time]

I'm sorry I haven't been around much lately. I'm still here, just haven't been in the mood to write many stories as of late. I still owe Him one that I haven't written yet. It is going to be about my ultimate fantasy, wherein I am made his complete and total slave for pretty much everything not just the bedroom. It's going to be a good, raunchy story if I can ever get around to writing it.

I also have some good news I want need to post about here, but I'm too tired tonight to give it the detail it so deserves.

In the meantime, here's a quiz I did that is pretty obvious, but fun none the less.

Slave!
You are 19% Dominant and 73% Submissive!
Hit me harder sir! You know what you like. Lick the boots and taste the leather. You enjoy a heavy hand over you, telling you what to do. You live to serve.. and love it. Maybe if your score is high enough.. you enjoy a little blood? Masochism is the only way to be!



My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 1% on Dominant
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 99% on Submissive
Link: The Master or Slave? Test written by undue_influence on Ok Cupid


I promise I shall have another story here soon.
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Sex Survey [Jun. 6th, 2005|03:41 am]
100 Questions: The DEFINITIVE SEX SURVEY

BASIC SHIT
1. What's your first name? Roxie
2. Male or female? Female
3. How old are you? 20
4. What country or state do you live in? Texas
5. Would you say you're straight, gay or bi? By definition I am bi-sexual because I am attracted to females, but don't see myself ever being in a relationship with one.

Read more... )

Well, that was fun. Perhaps I can sleep now...
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Fantasy #2 [Jun. 3rd, 2005|05:55 pm]
Fantasy #2

Today, I know, is going to be a trial. Today, I know, you're going to test me, to see how long I can go without breaking. No matter how much I try to prepare myself I know there is no use because I have no idea what is in store for me.

Being completely submissive to you is new and yet so natural. I'm still learning my limits, as are you, and that makes it all the more sweet. We are learning together - becoming beyond satisfied with our bodies, capabilities, and sexuality. I don't believe I've ever had this much fun learning before.

Cut for Length )

"Thank you gorgeous," I say and you untie my wrists. Before you're even done I'm fast asleep dreaming about being your slave again in a few hours.

- R.F.Prince
June 3, 2005
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Fantasy #1 [Jun. 3rd, 2005|01:42 am]
Fantasy #1

I am fast asleep in a mid-day nap when I feel you. I know instantly what you want. Your hand slides down my stomach and beneath my panties. I shiver as your middle finger begins to massage my clit. Now aware that I'm awaking, you chuckle lightly and ask me, "Does that feel good beautiful?"

"Mmm hmm..." I moan as one finger slides quickly inside my already dripping slit.

"Kiss me," you command. You lean down and press your amazing lips against mine. Slowly I open my mouth and quickly you slip your tongue in caressing mine and sending chills up my spine. I can never get enough of your kisses.

With your lips still pressed against mine you say, "Now, sit up, you're going to be my slut now, aren't you?" You slip two more fingers inside me and push hard, letting me know that you're in control - that you've got the power.

I love being your slut, just the thought sends waves of heat over my body and makes my tender pussy throb. I take off my shirt and slide my panties down allowing you full access to my cunt.

"Yes sir..." I manage to say through fits of ecstasy as your fingers reach inside me, tickling all the right spots to make me moan. You've got 2 fingers in me now as you slide one out and start fondling my asshole, waiting for the perfect time to penetrate me. I get nervous when I feel your finger there and I tense up.

"No, baby girl, don't tense like that. I don't like that," you say to me, and start to dip your finger inside my tight, hot ass. I tense again, not really meaning to, and I know as soon as I see the look on your face that I did wrong. Quickly, forcefully, you shove your whole finger into my asshole.

The breath catches in my throat as I feel a mixture of intense pleasure with pain. Just as I begin to make a noise you take my throat in your free hand and squeeze.

"No! I thought this was going to be easy, but clearly you don't want to cooperate with me. That's okay, go ahead and fight. It only fuels me," you snarl at me as you pump my ass and pussy hard, "Do you understand what I'm telling you slut? You're going to do as I say, exactly as I say, or you'll have hell to pay. Do you understand?"

Your grip is so tight on my throat and the finger fucking your giving me below is so intense that I'm only able to gasp out a whispery, "Yes!"

"Louder slut!" Your grip tightens even more.

"YES!" I manage to say and you remove your hand from my throat. As I'm gasping trying to catch my breath you yank your hand from my ass, making me scream, and flip me over so fast I can barely tell what happened.

"Now, I want you to get on all fours and grip the posts of the bed. Do NOT let go unless I tell you to, do you understand me?" You order as you pull my legs apart to just the angle you want. "I don't want you to yell out or let go of those posts for any reason whatsoever, got it bitch?"

"Y-yes sir," I stutter and grab the posts on the headboard. I can't help but be frightened by you, even though I know you love me. The fear only adds to the fire burning in my crotch. I love it when I don't know what to expect, or what awaits me when I'm in your hands.

As soon as you see that my hands are gripping the posts, you slap my right ass cheek. I let out a little yelp and I hear you tisk me.

"No little one, I told you, no sounds."

Again you lay your hand across my ass. You wait for me to make a sound and when I don't you do the same to the left side. Each cheek you slap 5 or 6 times until I'm a nice rosy pink and my thighs begin to tremble. My ass is burning from your heavy hand, so I welcome it when you plant soft, warm kisses first on the left, then the right.

The heat I feel inside is now at full blast. I can think of nothing but sweet release. I'm nearly overjoyed when you begin to lick my lips and my clit. Slowly penetrating me with your tongue teasing me, bringing me close to the brim and then turning down the fire, like a pot of boiling water. You slide your thumb into my asshole opening me for the ramming I know is coming.

Trying to stifle my moans is becoming more and more hard, so you say to me, "Now, slut, now you can moan for me."

From somewhere inside of me, a deep deep place within my body, comes a moan of pure pleasure that makes you slide your index finger into my asshole instead of your thumb. Deeply you probe me, feeling all the curves and crevices.

Holding onto the posts has gotten hard. My arms begin to shake and my right hand falls onto the mattress. As soon as it hits I realize and snap it back up hoping you didn't see my failure, but I'm too late.

"Ooh, slut, I saw that. Now you're just going to have to take this assfucking now when you're still tight. Should have listened to me. Let go of the bars and move to the edge of the bed. Now."

"But, but I'm not ready... Please... I'm sorry, I really am..." I try to get out of what I know is inevitable.

You just shake your head, grab me by the ankles, and turn me around abruptly so that I'm basically bent over the edge of the bed. I can feel you jacking off while you play with my asshole a little bit more, readying yourself, enjoying the thought of taking this from me. You slap my ass and my thighs leaving red hand prints, marking what's yours.

I let out little yelps each time you lay your hand across my flesh and I can feel the tears welling in my eyes. I know that you love me, and there isn't anyone else in the world I'd rather fuck me this way, but I'm angry at myself for having disappointed you. And I'm scared.

"Alright, here it comes bitch. You'd better relax..." You say as you begin to slide your throbbing cock into my ass. The pain is searing as your head penetrates me. Now I'm crying, letting the tears fall from my eyes onto the mattress as you moan and push deeper into me, making me take all of you in.

After the initial penetration, the pain begins to subside and you slowly start pumping into my ass. I can feel your balls press up against my cunt as you slide in and out of my tight ass going deeper and deeper with each thrust. Before I know it, the pain is replaced by intense pleasure and it's all I can do to keep from coming right there.

I try to reach under and play with my clit and you say between moans, "What do you think you're doing? Do you want to come slut?" Your cock reaches deeper hitting a g-spot I didn't even know I had.

I let out a load moan and say, "Yes sir, please, may I come?"

"No, you wait until I tell you. Keep playing with that dirty pussy of yours, but don't you come. Not until I say."

You start pounding my ass harder and harder as I finger myself and pinch my clit letting the heat rise and fall trying to stave off my orgasm. I can feel your cock starting to throb and I can tell you're about to come.

"Turn around here bitch and finish me," you say as you pull your cock from my ass. Obediently I turn around and take your cock in my hand and start to stroke it. "No goddamnit, suck it clean," you say as you grip the hair on the back of my head and force yourself into my hot mouth.

I take you deep down my throat sucking hard, taking my time because there's nothing I love more than having you in my mouth. You push my head deep onto you, gagging the back of my throat. Sending me so deep I can feel your balls against my chin. You reach around and pull hard on my clit and then my nipple. You slap my tit, wait a few seconds, then slap the other. Again you pinch my nipple, twisting it, making it tender and purple.

Just then you yank away from me and come all over my chest and into my mouth. I swallow you eagerly and take the head of your cock into my mouth to suck the rest of it off. I don't want to waste.

You see me still touching myself and you move my hand and penetrate me with three fingers. "Come for me now baby girl."

You pump fast and hard with your fingers rubbing right at the top where you know I love. The waves come over me and I come on your hand squeezing your fingers, not wanting to let you go. The orgasm is strong. It makes every muscle in my body contract and literally takes my breath away.

I fall back, with your juice all over my chest, in a heap of exhaustion and satisfaction. You give me a kiss and say, "You were a good girl. A beautiful girl. I love you. Now, let's go shower." I sit back up and I can tell that my ass is going to be sore tomorrow. I can't help but smile.

- RFP
June 3, 2005
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Introduction & Explaination [May. 27th, 2005|09:34 pm]
Hello! You're quite the lucky one to have found this journal, but I need to state some ground rules. First of all, if you're freaked out by blantant sexual content and things such as bondage, D/s realtionships, BDSM, and other things of that sort this isn't the place for you. Also, if you're underage you should probably go watch some Nicktoons or something and leave this page in the dust.

There, now that's out of the way I can move on to tell you why this DeadJournal was created. Well, my name is Roxie and I am 20 years old. I have for as long as I can remember been turned on by the idea of being taken, used, tied up, dominated, and even raped. I've never been able to let these fantasies out because things like that aren't generally accepted by society as I'm sure you're aware, and I've never had the courage to tell either of my partners of my desires either.

Finally, I've decided that it's high time I let these things out and feel the pleasure I've always denied myself.

In case I have to clarify this I'm going to say it now - it is possible to have a healthy, loving relationship as a Submissive. There are people who choose to live their entire lives in a D/s relationship meaning that they live to serve their "Master" or whatever name they choose to call their partner by. They are not only dominated in the bedroom, but in everyday life as well. I myself, do not choose to do that. I am probably more "vanilla" than most people interested in BDSM.

I am not really sure what all I like and don't like seeing as this is my first time expressing the desire to be dominated and controlled. I know very well that I don't want my everyday life controlled, but what happens in the bedroom is a completely different thing.

For more information on BDSM please check out these great sites. Especially if you're interested as well and have never tried it. Safety is of the utmost importance.

http://www.castlerealm.com - A great BDSM resource site for anything and everything.
http://www.exalte.com/SexToysArticle/112 - A well written article on BDSM safety.
http://members.fortunecity.com/chezmoi/vtrt.html - Another well done page on safety.
http://blood-dance.net/bdsm/beginners.html - What is BDSM about, safety, "must haves" for a successful D/s relationship.
http://www.vanilla-not.com/basics/ - Another excellent site covering a wide range of topics.

Also, there is a huge difference between abuse and a D/s relationship. I want to make this extremely clear. For more information about the difference, please check out the following site because they say it a lot better than I ever could.

http://www.io.com/~ambrosio/abuse/ - BDSM v.s. Abuse, the Difference between BDSM and Abuse, including Abuse in BDSM and Recognizing the Signs of Abuse

[All links stolen from the LiveJournal community fem_submissives.]

I have yet to completely reveal my fantasies to my boyfriend, but after knowing him for 6 years and being together for the better part of that I know his habits and most of his desires and I suspect he is all for this type of thing. I just want to make clear with myself what I like and don't like before bringing it up with him.

So yes, with all of that said, let's start experimenting shall we?

[All stories, poems, or other written works here are written and copywrited by me (R. F. Prince) unless otherwise noted. Please don't steal my work.]
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